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So, it's been a little bit longer, for good reason. A lot has happened but I can't remember much of it.

I took my second test of medical school and think I did pretty well. We have our second biochem test on Friday, and I am in no way ready for it. I've been pretty useless this week. On the upside, the work I have done has been pretty distracting. That's pretty much what I'm all about right now - distraction. Every now and then, I'll think about my life, what's happening, and where its going. Most things I planned for aren't going to happen now, so I'm rethinking. No cat for me, and I think I just may become a "road warrior" for the clinical years, since there's no reason to stay in DC. But such thoughts can get depressing, so I go back to the distraction thing. Sleep is a good distraction, but it can also be treacherous. For one thing, dreams can be an imaginative escape, or it can be a depressing rehashing of current events. Worse still is waking up and remembering.

On the upside, everyone has been very supportive. Well, almost everyone. One person was an a-hole, almost made me cry, but made me more angry than anything. But aside from him, everyone has been super nice, calling, texting, messaging to make sure I'm alright. Friday night we went out drinking, which was good and cathartic. I was temped for the first time in a long time to smoke again, but I resisted, because it would have required going outside. I think it won't be an issue this time because I don't have a balcony I could smoke from. Plus, I don't know any smokers anymore.

So I've got that off my chest, I'm going to study some biochemistry now...